breaking the cycle of self diminishment

I went to the Broad Museum today. It was a really nice time. I don't go out too much, as you guys well know,

but it was a lovely, refreshing, stimulating time to be in the city with all the beautiful architecture, gardens,

and people. The people seemed so beautiful and happy. It made me self diminish myself. At first I was aware of it and

then I forgot my senses when my friend came and we went through the Keith Haring Show it was fun

and amazing. I came home and on the drive home I seemed usurped by this will to self diminish but I realize

I gotta break that habit - that pattern. It was a fun time - so I appreciate that. It makes me want to do more

stuff like that and it makes me think of what arfie says "Don't compare your insides with Peoples' outsides" - as well

my therapist has talked about how out of 100% of people you see and think they have a great life...only about 10% of them actually do. The remaining 90% certainly don't. I'm not living for schadenfreud 

but in the process of opening up to the world, I need to return to my personal vector in life and just embrace

and love my life for what it is. :-) Break that cycle!!