bothered

I think it still bothers me that maybe 5% or less of the ED board are male.  Mostly because I try to be friendly and add my input and I think the women ignore it because I'm a guy.  It also bothers me because I have trust issues with other men due to prior life experiences, so it's not like I think I could fully open up to another guy as it is.  It sucks to be isolated from the rest of society to the small percentage of the world that has ED, but it sucks more to be isolated within that isolated community. Whatever, at least I've got a journal that can't ignore me. :P