Bloodwork

I had bloodwork today as my surgeon order it to be done before surgery.  So of course I am worried about that as well now. I worry they will find something else wrong with me and that they will cancel the surgery or postpone it. I have been anemic before and so I worry about that as well. I started taking the iron pills that were prescribed for me last year.  I stopped taking them because they do a number on my stomach but like I said I was worried about anemia. I tried looking up on the internet if they will still do a surgery if you are anemic and it seems like it depends but I couldn't get a clear answer so I don't know.  Hopefully the bloodwork will all come ok.  I have also been feeling out of breath and tired but both things can be due to anemia.  Also I have been reading old journel entries and one of the things that is prominant when I have been anxious was that I complained of feeling out of breath and tired with stomach issues.  I also have been having random stomach pain in random places the top of my stomach the sides the back.  My mind goes to bad places.  It feels like my body decided to fall apart all at once and I have so many things to worry about now.  Also my nurse cordinator called and said I would not need the Savi scout after all so that was once less thing I have to do.  While talking to her she asked if the oncologist office had reached out to me they had not.  So she called them and they never recieved their fax about my referral so they should be calling me in a day or two.  It is just for an introductory appointment there is nothing they really do before surgery they need the information that is gleaned during the operation such as if the lymph nodes are involved before they can start a plan.  I have to go but I will try to update later if I get the bloodwork results back the nurse said I might get them today. 

Update: It is almost 10pm here and so I wanted to update.  I got my CBC panel back almost a couple of hours later.  I am definetly anemic.  The comprehensive metabolic panel isn't back and that is worrying me. I looked at my past bloodwork and it seemed like those test always come back the same day.  So now I am worried its not back yet because something is wrong and so they sent it to my doctor so they could call me with the bad news.  One website said it could take one to two days to come back.  I am trying to be hopeful but I am really upset if I am being honest. I keep obsessively checking the medical app to see if it has come in yet.  I am also praying.  I know God is with me but here lately I fear that His plans are different then my prayers. My faith has been shaken because of my diagnosis.  Which makes me a bad Christian but an honest one.  I pray that the Lord will renew my faith and help me in this very difficult time.