Blood ISN'T thicker than water after all.

I'm back at it! Starting to feel more positive, motivated! It's weird how this came to be. About 3 years ago (Which in my opinion does NOT matter, how long ago) My then boyfriend who I was living with and had been dating for some time. Cheated on me with my cousin in our bed. Then I came home and kissed and hugged him and we both then went to sleep in that same bed. WTF!!!! Irks me every time I think about this. Him and I dated for 4 years after this happened w/o knowing of course. I stood by him for a fucking year while he went to prison for a DUI. My cousin who was more like a lil sister to me was there with me through it all. I broke up with him for other reasons going on 2 years ago. We've known each other and have been very close friends since the 6th grade b4 we started dating. Up until 3 days ago we were still very close, best friends. We would tell each other everything. I would give him advice about girls he was dating and vice versa,but we both still loved each other very much and always talked about how one day we could end up together again, he always told me that I was the only girl he's ever truly been in love with. One night we were talking about all of the crazy drunkin fights we used to have. The night they hooked up was one of them. After he left I got to thinking about that night and it dawned on me.... they hooked up. Long story short, we were all drinking, him and I got into an argument I left walking but then came back. The door was locked and was calling their cells and they weren't answering and finally I started banging on the window. Anyways like I said I went in we kissed hugged and went to bed, right were they had JUST hooked up. Fucking disgusting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I tricked him and told him that she had already told me everything and he confessed. I then told her I knew about it and she's still trying to deny it. Anyways when finding all of this out I was devastated, mortified, and so angry that the devil himself was probably worried. After crying and yelling and ripping them both a new one. I felt alive! I realized that I could live without either of them. It is a shame to have to do that but I do not want those kind of people in my life. I realized that after all the hurt and pain I've been feeling lately, I'm still alive and I may not be completely well but I have the chance to get there even now!! So back to being focused on me and my wellness and being positive! Striving for the best to show those who hurt me that I'm a strong person and I will be on top!! Oh and a big FUCK YOU!!! :) ♥