blah blah blee bluey blue........that's right, you heard it here first. ....hugs, your idiot friend.

crying.  ah jeez.  but that's what i'm doing.  very little tolerance for frustrating issues.  unfair things.  disappointment.  am i regressing?  is this part and parcel for sick people.
trying to explain an injustice to a corporate someone doesn't always trip off the tongue.  and that is me today.  i ended up rambling and then crying.  well crap a doodle doo.
ten day til my license expires.  uh oh.  it's very cold here, for Georgia anyway.  i haven't been sleeping well.  end up awake far into the night but feeling like crap.  achy breaky everything.  i move to a spot and soon a joint or a muscle hurts.  i move to a new spot and something new hurts or the previous hurt hurts more.  i go carefully from one side to the other.  it's hard.  hard to sit up, hard to turn.  spasms ripple through my back. 
fibro pain.  arthritic pain.  cfs symptoms out the wazoo.  this is not happy days.  this is unhappy days.
starring sick people.  sigh.  crappy crap crap crap. 
ok, so i'm not in a good mood.  happens to everyone right?  can't be perky all the time.  stupid nose is dripping.........glands are swollen, ears hurt.........and i feel randomly cranky. cranky to the max can't remember how to spell irritable........guess third time sometimes is a charm. 
it's freezing out.  almost 4 pm.  going nowhere again.  i suck.  while i'm sure i already mentioned that.......it bears repeating to my poor tired shlumpy mind. 
if i were a lion i would roar.  if i were a shark i would attack.  if i were a person i would whap people with nerfball bats.  if i were better i wouldn't be such a grumpy grouchy grouch. 
.........let's flip the script.  the other day i watched an episode of "Hometown".  Set in Laurel, Mississippi, this is a home improvement show.  A wonderful couple wants to see new families make Laurel their home town........and to that end they reach out to families who want to relocate their..........and they help them.  Help them find a narrowed down selection of homes to consider.  Provide contacts in an all inclusive way to get the old home renovated.........and as this all comes to pass the new families are making friends with existing citizens.......improving the town, community spirit, enriching local businesses......it's all a very win win kind of deal.  and they come up with great low cost solutions for projects to keep the costs within a family budget.  awesome......
the hubby is a giant man with a beard and kind eyes.........the wife is a sweet blonde young woman with an infectious spirit.  he grew up very poor and she grew up wanting to grow the hometown spirit for her own family and future generations.  together they make quite a team.  .........i would love to spend the rest of my life in a renovated older home with a big front porch and a sweet backyard with an artist studio. 
there is another show........not sure what they call it, but folks bid on all sorts of properties that have to be moved.  that's the deal maker ........everything from company shacks to silos are sold and then moved and RECREATED as all sorts of cool deals.  Mother in law homes, artist studios, student housing.......all kinds of cool ideas.........
one show featured a home purchased for a buck... yup, one dollar.  the couple that won the bid turned it into the cutest little starter home and sold it for under $20 grand.  another couple bought a small house and sold it to a mom for her son to live in during his college days.  this gave him privacy and cost less than they would have spent on an apartment for him to live in........the mom had enough land on her property to give him space/privacy and he loved having his own pad...........the final cost was somewhere between $20 and $25 grand.  four years of school with a base apt price of a grand.........vs. buying a refurbished property...........what an amazing deal.  this show is based in Texas........i would like to see if there is a company in my area that does this and then maybe the kids could stick me on a plot of land in the country for cheap......next to a pond or a creek or something watery.........to listen to, to look at. 
dreaming for a few minutes has ended the tears.  feeling like a failure right now, gotta shake that off.  like a wet dog.......gotta shake hard.  to cleanse the hurt, anxiety, frustration.
i really wanted to see the globetrotters this year, but because of slick pricing it's now off the table.  i'm gonna be fine.......but doggone it, i thought watching clever funny talented basketball players do on court basketball tricks would be so much fun.  .........my son's girl thinks this is weird, she is not anti me at all.........she just isn't into "physical culture".......that's my phrase, not hers.  she doesn't like sporty stuff, outdoorsy stuff..........she likes video games, she likes vampires and zombies and other things that aren't on my primary radar..........
who wants everybody to be just alike? not be, i like diversity of interests............so i'm fine but i have this absurd sense of humor that can't let her off the hook without some teasing.......hence the dig about how she is anti physical culture. lol..........can't keep going.  gotta fall down now.  temps should be better tomorrow and friday so these are my target days for a car tag and a driver's license. 
pray for me, i'll be praying for you.  forgive me for my transgressions of late, and thank you added patience and understanding.  .........xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo, back to bed time it is.