black friday

Well, today is Black Friday.  I still havent heard from sarah at all.  I did get to speak with Tommy yesterday, but only after i texted my father in law and asked if i could.  I am still confused about life in general.  I love my wife, but am hurt that she would do the stuff that she does and always has done to me.  She blocks me on facebook, wont return a call, says things that i know arent true.  I know that she is upset, and i can only offer my apologies.  I did this.  I remember that, then get mad at myself.  I am really trying hard at what i am doing.  I love Sarah and my children so much.  I can only pray that the lord above has them in my future.  until next time, later!