Well, today is Black Friday. I still havent heard from sarah at all. I did get to speak with Tommy yesterday, but only after i texted my father in law and asked if i could. I am still confused about life in general. I love my wife, but am hurt that she would do the stuff that she does and always has done to me. She blocks me on facebook, wont return a call, says things that i know arent true. I know that she is upset, and i can only offer my apologies. I did this. I remember that, then get mad at myself. I am really trying hard at what i am doing. I love Sarah and my children so much. I can only pray that the lord above has them in my future. until next time, later!