BLAAAAAAAAH work

Everything that could go wrong in my job did today. I keep fucking up. I've hardly mentioned it in here, but ever since I've started the job I've fucked up. I'm really not cut out for it. I can't even do the damn job. I can't cope under pressure. Get all nervious and fuck up. I get showed to do things so many times but still can't do it. The boss is an asshole. I can't do anything right. I can never find fucking cards then I ask someone else to look and miraculously they find them.  Banking's never work I always wind up fucking them up somehow and we are out of money then the shit hits the fan. I've been pulled up a few times, recieved one written warning that was after my verbal warning. Because I don't pass on messages properly I didn't label prescriptions properly. BLah fucking blah its shit after shit and I've been told so many times what to do how the fuck do I still blow it!!! I've been given so many chances. Been pulled up so many times because I am no good. It's my fault anyway I obviously can't do the job. I really am no good. I'd be better to get back to my fucking cleaning job! I always wanted to work in a vets, I'm actually doing it, but the fact is I can't actually DO the job. God I've made so many stupid mistakes that could quite easily have cost me the loss of my job ages ago! I am so lucky to still have the damn job!! But not for long. After today, I won't be surprised at all if I get pulled up tomorrow. I really fucked up. Everyone talks about me aswell. I hear them so makes me feel even more awkward around them when I have to act all normal infront of them but really I want to stick the fucking middle finger in the air and say FUCK YOU ALL. Some of them are just so damn lazy do hee haw yet are first to say to me to go and mop a damn floor!! WTF!! Or, point the blame to me when it wasn't even me that done it! Can't be fucked wae the place. I wish I could find another job. I don't want to get fucked out the job. If I leave either way I know I won't get a good reference at all. I have really tried at the job, but I just can't do it. WHy I don't even know I just can't seem to get it right! Like I'm always doing something wrong, every day, there isn't a day that goes by where I don't do something silly even if it is the little-est of things, I always fuck up!