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I just woke up and feel okay right now. Not happy or sad just really kind of blank right now.
Last night I spoke to my ex boyfriend who also happens to be my best friend about my feelings. He said he was proud of me making the steps to take care of myself. Litterally nothing he said could bring me out of my funk. Just kind of started crying over the phone because I felt alone and lonely.
Had dreams about being back in school with my friends, I had taken a test then got into teaching a friend how to ready Tarot cards, and was back in the school band doing what I loved most playing my clarinet..I have dreams about being back in an orchestra all the time. Wonder what that means.
Today i plan to sit by the phone to wait for a call back from my job interview. I've started my T.O.M (Time Of Month) and while it's St. Patricks Day I may not leave my house. PMS and Bipolarness is a bad combo.
But I feel okay now. I think as long as I don't leave my house or speak to anyone who is insensitive.
I love John Cusack. *sigh*
Last night I spoke to my ex boyfriend who also happens to be my best friend about my feelings. He said he was proud of me making the steps to take care of myself. Litterally nothing he said could bring me out of my funk. Just kind of started crying over the phone because I felt alone and lonely.
Had dreams about being back in school with my friends, I had taken a test then got into teaching a friend how to ready Tarot cards, and was back in the school band doing what I loved most playing my clarinet..I have dreams about being back in an orchestra all the time. Wonder what that means.
Today i plan to sit by the phone to wait for a call back from my job interview. I've started my T.O.M (Time Of Month) and while it's St. Patricks Day I may not leave my house. PMS and Bipolarness is a bad combo.
But I feel okay now. I think as long as I don't leave my house or speak to anyone who is insensitive.
I love John Cusack. *sigh*
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