BJ\'s Birthday

Today is BJ's birthday. It still seems strange not to be able to pick up the phone and call him to wish him happy birthday. I told him anyway of course cause I know he hears me. I made his favorite orange cupcakes for him.I also lit a candle to honor his birthday. Days like today are very hard for me to get thru. It seems like no one but me remembers these kind of days. Of course to top it all off my brother called before lunch to tell me my dad was at the hospital again. He has been in and out of the hospital since the end of April. He gets pressure in his chest and doesn't feel well and off he goes to the emergency room. I think a lot of it is his COPD but I know some of it is his nerves too. Lately he has been getting really bad gas pains and that seems to be what has sent him to the emergency room the last couple of times. I think this time they are really going to work to find out just what is going on with his stomach. I sure hope so cause I'm not sure how much more of this sitting here and waiting for the phone to ring I can handle. Its really hard to be so far from home. I guess I'll get thru it like I do everything else....one day at a time and with a lot of help from above.