Good Morning - it's Wednesday, not quite Friday, but we are getting there. I have written before and said, I come here because I just don't know where to go when I need sane, heartfelt, words to comfort my heart.
Well, Hunter is going to be graduating and will walk the graduation ceremony. He is having professional pictures done this week-end. He is going to grad nite......my heart is so happy that he is going to participate because he wasn't going to. He said, I'm doing it for you, Yahya. Aww, my heart is full and so grateful. The bittersweet to this is, where is my daughter? She should be here, experiencing this too, she and I should be together with my mom - celebrating Hunter. After seeing Hunter last night for his guitar lesson, I cried all the way home - deep gut wrenching cries, which I haven't done in a long time......I got home with tears running down my face and Jim said, what's wrong? I told him, asking him to refrain from commenting as I was very emotional and on edge. He couldn't help himself and after I was done, crying and saying Jennifer should be here - I miss her so much - this is her son......Jim says, "you should be happy, your mom and Jennifer will have front row seats, they will be there".......because of my emotional state, I went off - oh, sisters guess you can tell alot about me in how I react to things.......I said, oh let me get tickets for them then, and just where will they be? I need to see them, I need to hug them, I need them to be there!!!! I feel so alone without them - the tears are coming again so I guess I'm done ranting.....at work with kids who are having issues and I need to have my head screwed on straight. LOL
I hate being on this journey - the one thing that makes it bearable is you......Thank you.
Hugs and love, always Jennifer's mom