Birthday Wishes.

I suppose things got better. I called my dad after my psych appointment to ask him what his weekend plans were. He told me in a cool and calm voice that he has no plans as of now and I told him that I think that I am going to celebrate my birthday this weekend because it is next Tuesday and no one wants to celebrate on a Tuesday. I don't know if I should go out of town or if I should stay and maybe buy something special for myself like a large screen TV or something cool that I don't have. On the other hand, I could go out of town and take the train or the car and travel to a new place or an old one and relax. i would life to involve my friends but I think that they wouldn't go along with it and I would end up paying for all of it like I have in the past. It will be interesting to see what anyone does for my birthday after all that I have done for my friends and their birthdays. 
 
I don't want to put too much thought into this. I actually do think that they will come through for me in some way. I would like to celebrate with them. I want to celebrate aver the weekend but I committed myself to babysitting the neighbor's kid on Friday night. I referred them to katie, but there is no point in that because I would like to celebrate with Katie. I have to go. 
 
Goodnight moon.