Bingoboy

I'm a little heated about the recent discussion that he and i are having. I don't want a constant reminder about H. I have it and don't want to know about it. It's not me only apart of me. It's not who i am. I want him to love me but without doubt. completely. I try to remain calm and cool but the more we talk about it the more I get fed up. He thinks he loves me and wants to be w/ me but he has to get over this diease. he want to make love to me but H is standing in the way. Today is Thursday and we'll see each other if I pick him up for his ride. but I don't want to talk about this. and this convo happens to come up more and more lately. Am I suppose to b happy about this? He is expressing his feelings SO. I have feelings too I feel like a side show freak, that everyone wants to see but afraid to go inside the curtain. I can't explain this shit over and overagain. It's tireding. I rather not. i got court tmww. and I should be wooried about that but I not I know that every thing will be ok. So my focus is on BB.