Binaural Beats, Journals, and Trying to work through darkness

Today was a busy day; just a lot of stuff to do around the house.  Nothing spectacular.  If it does mean anything to anyone, I'm getting my MA pharmacy technician license in the mail in a few weeks...which is terrific because it does lock up a sure B route out if paralegal doesn't work out.
I spent a couple of dollars on an app for my iPod Touch that plays binaural beats among other things, because I'm getting absolutely sick of inconsistent sleep patterns.  The first couple of nights with it have been much better on that front.  I woke up once only for water last night and was back asleep immediately after.  Hopefully this will keep up for a while because better sleep is a step in the right direction.
Starting to journal again, too...it's not really the same as before, though.  It's actually a little harder now because I'm trying to let how I really feel come out, but as certain friends have pointed out, I've been in the darkness for so long that it's going to be hard to come out of it.  I have a lot of questions that are going to need time to sort out.  But I have to start doing this -- yes, in the middle of the semester -- because I'm just sick of feeling like this...and have been for what feels like forever.