BILLS, BILLS, BILLS!

Thurs. Night...LATE!  I am trying to remind myself of what Heloise, Ann Landers, or someone like that said...."It is a blessing to have bills arrive in my mailbox & that people trust me to owe them money." (Or something like that)  I don't get paid much and only get paid once a month.  In about 2 hrs. I can spend what I made all month on bills.  It is depressing!  I try to live within my means.  However, like many others, my means are just not cutting it.  I could really use a part-time job but I barely have the strength to do this one.  Ah, well.....  I did get my lab results back today.  A couple of things are a little bit off but nothing big.  I guess it is just the grief that is making me feel so lousy.  Good to know.  I guess.  The problem is, there is nothing that can cure this.  The drama at school goes on.  Now other teachers are involved.  I hate it!  Having a special ed. child myself, it makes me angry with the system.  On the other hand, I just have to go with the flow until an opportunity comes to help the system along.  It is a battle I have fought for many years.  But, that was personal.  This is my job, which I love, and cannot afford to lose.  I am trying very hard to stay on neutral ground.  Chris called tonight.  He is still having girlfriend trouble and is ready to end it but doesn't quite know how.  I am flattered that he is asking me, Mom, for advice.  I thanked him for that.  Adam is going to house sit/dog sit next week.  It pays well but he is a bit nervous.  For all his talk about wanting to move out he made sure with me that the house is not far and he could call me if he needed to.  Too cute.  Craig and I actually had a regular conversation tonight.  It was nice.  We just talked about our work day.  It is amazing how just a simple conversation, with no issues, can make a difference.  I think we are going to have to save our change for an overnight visit to Branson, which is close, or something.  We REALLY need to re-connect.  Thank GOD tomorrow/today is Friday!  I am tired!  Peaceful wishes to everyone reading this and those who are not.