big hug coming your way!

a very very very very very very very very very.......VERY BIG HUG coming your way in 5, 4, 3, 2.....1......BLAST OFF!

YOU ARE SOOOOO HUGGABLE!

i am slowly trying to organize for the mountain trip.  sara will be driving .......what a relief and what a blessing!

......in the next short by and by i will be getting a colonoscopy done, but the gastro doc also wants to do an endoscopy.  see what's going on inside ......ack.  categorizing under things that can wait, but i promise to be good and get them done SOON.

the blood work had a few areas of well things.  stuff that is low, stuff that is high. some categories were normal, i know, shocked the socks off me too!  stuff they want to recheck in six months. 

had a message regarding the MRI.

it wasn't awful but then again it wasn't all that great.  heard words like bulging discs, spinal stenosis........L 3, L 4, L 5........think that sounds right.  arthritis is a lot worse......need to see a back specialist and perhaps consult with my rheumatologist as well. 

asked my doc is i should go ahead and get an mri done on the upper cervical area.  having daily hand numbness......lot of neck pain.

between my this and my that i'm not functioning so well..........thinking about this kind of speaks to the why of why i'm not on here much, why i'm not doing much......but i am going to go to the mountains one way or another.

i probably won't get to do much.....but that view........will be glorious. those autumn leaves, the fresh air........the indoor hot tub, some good food, some good time spent with my daughter.  that's the stuff.  the gooooooood stuff.

i dragged my bags in.....dusted off the cobwebs!  and the cooler.  got stuff drying......promise to you and to myown self not to overpack.  i am so tired, i've been teary lately......pain and frustration and not up to par by far.  that doesn't make sense or does it? 

.......i love you, i have mad gratitude for you, mad compassion for each day of your journey........i wish you could come too......take in the view and if things go well enjoy good fellowship, some good food.......sitting by the river.  i plan to take a hobby basket, just in case i can't get out and about.  i can sit in bed and open the curtains.......and watch the world roll by ......a change of view will be grand. 

hurts a lot today.......pray that i can be brave.  pray for you also.  (lately my bravery medal feels tarnished.......but i promise to try).