BFN confirmed by AF

We'll for those that didn't know AF was supposed to show today if my cycle failled even though my RE is making me wait till Friday for my beta.  Why the extra days, I don't know, they now do beta's later than with my last cycle.
We'll I'm nothing if not ponctual so AF decided to show to prove my BFN this morning was spot on even with my 3 doses of progesterone per day.
AF it me like a load of bricks.  I was in my office  and didn't even know how I'd get up to come home.
I felt so positive when we got the ok to cycle and was good until this weekend when I realized I just wasn't feeling it.
I really did everything I could this cycle.  I haven't touched coffee or a drink in over 2 months. I was eating all the right things (I was turning into a pinapple). I haven't even gotten into a bath incase the water temp was just a little to high.
I guest I'll be drinking my hole cruise next week.  After the awful day of BFNs today with Alana and Nelly, I think I should be drinking for 3.
I only get to see my RE on March 28 so that's a hole month away.  DH and I  agreed this morning we'll do 4 more IVFs and then we'll stop TTC.  I don't know how I'll find the energy or hope.  This embry was perfect, what more will it take.
I know I'll get through this and get some hope back but I also know I woudn't be able to if it wasn't for all of you that understand and are always there with a hug or a reply.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m so sorry.
vmarie3
vmarie3

I\'m so sorry, Roxy! Thinking of you! Hope you are able to enjoy yourself on the cruise. I hope this month flies by for you.
cidekmat
cidekmat

hun i am so sorry try to enjoy the cruise and hell yeah drink for all three... I am sure when you see your RE he will have maybe another approach that will work better... HuGS and my thoghuts are with you girls
endowife
endowife

:-( I am so sorry to hear the news. So frustrating! You must be in shock. Ugh! I know your BFP is just around the corner...hang in there. Huge hugs.
HopefullyWaiting
HopefullyWaiting

I am so sorry! I know there is nothing more to say.
jewelzsi
jewelzsi

So Sorry! Drink up on that cruise girlie.....
alanabanana
alanabanana

Please drink away, I can\'t drink because of the stupid Graves\' disease so drink for me! This truly sucks Roxy. I fully thought your cycle was going to work, and mine, and Nelly\'s. horrible days we have all had. So sorry for AF :(
deleted_user
deleted_user

UGH....I am so sorry Roxy. I know how hard it is to hear it didn\'t work. I feel like I have heard that for 25 straight months of trying, and it still stings. I hope that the cruise will take your mind off things for a bit and give you that hope back to move forward and try again! Sending you lots of love! XOXO
deleted_user
deleted_user

Oh Roxy I am so sorry this didnt work. I was so hopeful for you and was feeling so spositive. Hope you can enjoy the cruise and it helps take your mind of this cor a bit...and definjtely drink for all three. BIG HUGS
deleted_user
deleted_user

That sux!! I\'m sorry, have fun on your cruise and try to let IF creep in when you\'re having fun
deleted_user
deleted_user

So sorry Roxy! Enjoy your cruise and your family time and try not to even think about it. IF doesn\'t get a right to join you.
deleted_user
deleted_user

So sorry Roxy :( Try to have fun on your cruise and take advantage of it!!!
HopefulinNYC
HopefulinNYC

I\'m so sorry!!! I agree with everyone else - drink up on that cruise and try and enjoy yourself. Do whatever you need to do for comfort right now. xoxo
deleted_user
deleted_user

Hugs to you!! I\'m very sorry AF showed its ugly face..... Vacation coming up might be what you need, relax, unwind, and just gather your thoughts....4 more cycles keeps me hopeful that you\'ll get your BFP miracle.....
XO\'s
ejadep123
ejadep123

im sorry to hear of your BFN today. our bodies are complex in so many ways. either they let us down with a BFN, or they can amaze us with an instinct like u had over the weekend that something wasnt right.