Better without cutting

I am reading comforting bible verses that i havent read in quiet some time. They are making me feel better to the point where i dont need to cut. My dad and i might go out today, but my androphobia might stop me, but i think if i take my Xanax i will be fine. theres a website with some helpful tips that im going to try and apply. I will probably fail sense ive never applied them but it doesnt hurt to try them out, does it? Hopefully it wont be too much pain that i will cut, hopefully i will be able to have common sense and read the bible. Look up some encouraging scriptures and go onto the Watchtower Library website for help and knowledge.