Better Days

Yesterday was not a great day.  Bickering with my wife all day, being selfish and not even realizing how to not be selfish is a terrible feeling.  Fighting with her wears me down, I don't want to fight with her.  Telling me I need to do certain things because "I want to" not because "She wants me to."  That simple concept is so hard for me to grasp, I do what "I" want to and that makes me selfish, but if I do what "she" wants me to, then she won't like that because it could lead to resentment from me towards her.  It sucks.  I don't want to leave my company, I don't.  But then she tells me that by me not leaving it shows no hope for our marriage.  Well I don't want to lose her and my family.  Deep Inhale.  One day at a time.