The last couple of days have been a bit better. I needed time to adjust to SO not being around and only talking on the phone with him. Also the day that was the worst was the day I had to take dd, her so and baby for an appt for the baby... I always feel so used and unappreciated because they have no money and no way to do anything or go anywhere. I have to do everything and pay for everything. I just need to get out from under all the responsibilty I feel and have some freedom. My sister invited me out to dinner with her and my other sister tonight and I can't even buy myself dinner. I'm going but I'll feel like a heel cause they'll be paying everything. Some day it will all get better I hope... I've been saying that for a long time.