Being pushed into agreeing to go to Rehab

Sure enough, I've been in here about 10 days so far, and they're already talking about moving me to Rehab. I should have known Brandon Regional hospital would do that AGAIN to me ! 

I'm wondering if I would have been better off NOT going to the hospital. BUT How would I have gotten out of the apartment, and taken a ride on Hart plus to go to a doctor's office alone - struggling to walk with my walker onto the Hart Plus van, and off of it. And then struggling to walk OFF of the van at the doctor's office to sit down on my wheelchair, and get into the office - with someone helping me through the doorway ! .... It'd be a LONG list of obstacles to do all of this, and the rest of what it would involve. ... OF course then once the appt. is over with, I'd have to do ALL of it in REVERSE ! If " someone " would go with me that would be different, but I know that that would not happen. 

So I suppose... as much as I hate to even admit it in here, that going to Rehab might be what I HAVE TO DO. DAMN IT ! 

I just swore to myself last time I was in a Rehab, that I would not let it happen AGAIN ! 

But here I am... Again ! 

I just hope and PRAY that Ray will stay, and stick by me during ALL of this. I still need him to stick around.... 1 to help with monthly finances... and 2 - to help me once I'm out of Rehab. It will take me a little bit of time to " readjust " once I get back, and I still won't be physically able to do housecleaning, or a lot of laundry. Cooking would still be the main thing I can do for him and I - for Us. I hope that he'll be understanding about that. He should be accepting and understanding about it since I don't demand a lot of money from him every month - just a small amount that helps pay one of the main monthly bills, and helps me to still have a little left in my checking account. I hope he will stay. I don't want to end of going back to an Empty apartment like I've done in the past with him. I can't go through that hell AGAIN ! PLEASE GOD... PLEASE don't let that happen ! 

I don't want to lose him for many reasons... for financial reasons and for emotional reasons - I still love him very much.