being alone today is really difficult

So I went to work this morning and was happy with the work I did.

I came home and did my usual routine and then did the weekly grocery shopping.

I feel really aware of my feelings and have a sense of strength about things to a certain degree

it's just... I kind of got into a groove earlier at work and then when I came home

I became really lonely. It's hard to be alone sometimes

but actually now that I've spilled my guts... I feel better and I know you all are 'out there somewhere' and perhaps

reading this journal! :) hehe My focus at work is the work and being social...The focus at home is the work of taking

care of home and myself, and the rest is a mix of what interests and motivates me. I know I'd like to be social as well and I know I have to be fighting too to achieve my goals "off work time" - it's the nature of the beast - and that I am coming to understand now too..... Turmoil exists.

Sorry about all these emails where I basically examine my navel... I have to be my own Doctor and I need to understand what I am doing habitually and I want to learn enough to get to a productive place. Have a great day guys!!