Begnning of February

I was a little depressed yesterday. I was eating more than I should have been. I went to a meeting to plan our high reunion. I consumed too many calories for weight loss. Good food though. To help make some healthy options available I brought a fruit bowl that I bought a Kroger. The fruit was really good. I thought it was kind of expensive but it was worth it.

My spirits were really lifted at the meeting. It was like a reunion in itself. I seems like the same people are showing up over and over when it comes to reunions and get togethers. It may be that these are the leaders. It was really good to see old classmates. Hopefully we can get the word out more and get more people to show up.

I had planned to exercise that evening. I did not though. I ended up staying up all night trying to clear my bedroom of all the excess clutter and organize what I decided to keep. The bad part about it is that I am not through. I have got to work on getting that down some. Suze Orman says that people with low self esteem surround themselves with a lot of things to fill the emptiness in their lives. I have struggled with low self esteem in the past. I don't think that is really an issue now though. I guess it could be better. I have definitely felt a void or emptiness many many times. I can remember a time when I felt it so strongly that it felt like a physical pain.

I will exercise today though. I am not feeling motivated. When I don't feel motivated I get myself to do a little light activity and then I start wanting to do more.