Been so long
Been so long since I've been here , and still not a day goes by that I don't think of my giz and Keegan, I won't ever recover from the loss of them, I thought it would get better , in some ways it has but I am a shell of the person I was before they passed, I have a hardened heart, room for my Bailey but nothing else, just a shitty day, week , month , year . Shitty life
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It hurt to come here, look at the pictures read the postings , it hurts , I bought a new video camera before Keegan left me, used it once , to tape him and I together, holding and kissing him, telling him what he meant to me, how much I loved him , I haven\'t used that camera since that day, the tape is still in there one day I may have the nerve to watch it
Did you know I used to have to do mouth to mouth on my Keegan , almost daily, sometimes more than once a day , what I did to hang onto those last memories, hope he knew I wasn\'t trying to be selfish , I couldn\'t let go
Well, my friend, I have missed you. I hope to hear from you again. I have thought about you quite often. Many hugs. I still think of Giz