BEEN PUNY......

Saturday, 6-20-09:  I have been really puny!  Last week-end Craig brought this nasty cold/virus/something, home.  I have been pretty puny for the last several days.  I started coming down with the "ick" on Monday.  I think I might, finally, be getting better.  I have done NOTHING for the past two days! (Except blow my nose and cough) It has been a busy week, though.  On Tuesday evening I went to a Balloon Release ceremony at Compassionate Friends.  It was very beautiful but after it was over, I just felt worse.  All the ceremony in the world can not, will not, bring my son back.   Wednesday was Scott's second angel date.  I was feeling pretty sorry for myself and lonely.  Finally, I called a good friend.  That was hard to do...reach out for help.  Anyway, she came over and got in the pool with me.  We floated and talked.  Sometimes we talked about Scott and sometimes just about "stuff".  And, so many people, including many of Scott's friends, emailed me.  Just to know they are not forgetting him means so much! On Thursday I had a doctor appointment to re-check my ankle.  It still hurts but I talked them into releasing me.  It was work comp.  Then, I ran a few errands before meeting another good friend at Subway.  I ate dinner with her but was fading fast.  I didn't visit long but came home and went to bed.  I was getting really sick. Friday and Saturday, (until a bit ago) found me sleeping, off/on, in my recliner.  I haven't done anything, I had intended to do, so far this summer break.  I have high hopes for next week.  There are certain things I MUST do in order to make myself feel better about myself.  Of course now, Craig is off three days a week.  So, that only gives me four to accomplish anything.  I just can't get things done when he is here!  At least I can upload photos, here, again.  I am dreading tomorrow.  Not only is it Father's Day, the day Scott died, but it is the 21st, the day we buried him.  I will be glad when this stretch of memories is not so intense.