Been awhile

Well, here it is what? about 6-7 month since the last time I posted anything.. Alot has ben going on, I got a job, not a great job, but a job. was promoted twice in the first month, wish I could say it was going great but it's not. I am the Ad set supervisor for a large Dept store, I run the team but don't have input on who works with me, I considered myself fair and a decent supervisor I try to give the people better training then was given to me, but its just some people are not cut out to do this job it's very physical and demanding..I don't have the team I need to do the job as needed, but can't do anything about it ...So I constantly am getting reamed, for 1 thing or another... When hired to this postion was told it would be anywhere from 28 to 38 hours a week,, Well, guess what they lied( not surprised) I have only been getting 18 to 25 hours a week.. This has became a issue as my wonderful (not) X has not paid spousal or child support for the last 6 months, I have gone thru all my saving and now struggling and freaking out.. Yes I've taken the issue to the court, and am waiting inpatiently for them to respond.. Looking to sale my truck to make ends meet. Son lhas been a handful, but I getting thru it with him..The X also dropped us both from insurance without notice, but I have found a counsler that is working with me on a slide bases.He has actually been the best counsler as of yet, he has helped me understand alot about myself. and about dealing with my insecurties..I have learned to set and keep boundries that are weaning me out of my codependent ways, which means I have had to take a big step away from my family,especially my Mom who seems to suck me in and if I in any way disappoint her or let her know that she stepping over my boundries,  she says that she doesn't like me.and that I don't or shouldn't tell her what i feel. My counsler has given me some insight and some ability on how to deal.. I actually told her since you don't like me then please don't call, that I am done bending over backwards trying to please her, that I am who, I am.. Its strange to look at the family dynamics as, the Grandmother (moms mom) did the same thing to her, she always let my Mom know that she liked  her sister and brother better then her...I guess history repeats itself..My mom has said on more then one ocassions that I'm tough and take it.... but what she doesn't know is that I'm not tough and that I can't and won't take it... I know this post is very long and I'm sorry it just feels really good to write it all down..I do have 1 question.  My mom gave me a watch that she has had since she was young, she gave me and my sister each a peice of jewelery. She asks me at least 2-3 times a year if I still have it, or did I lose it... I don't think I want this watch any longer, I feel she only gave it  to me because she gave my sister something, so do I give it back?