Been a while
Well, I haven't been here in a while. I just felt a need to write though. I've had a lot of conflicting feelings lately no doubt exacerbated by stress @ work. Much has also changed. I now have an adorable nephew, as of 3/20/09. Tony & I will holiday in SF in Sept. It's our first vacation in 6 years, & WE NEED IT. However, I'm rapidly hemorhaging $ for a root canal, old car, tooth filling, glasses, etc. Our lame HMO is screwing us over on Tony's eyes as well. Argh. Still, I'm determined NOT to cut again. I haven't since, what, Sept.? I have smoked a good bit lately. My last one was yesterday. I bought some more nicotine gum. It's helping a bit. I'm starting to insult myself more. I hated gaining all that weight when I "quit" smoking in April. I've since taken off 1/2, but I still feel like a whale. *sigh* So, I just wanted to vent. I won't stay away so long anymore.