Been A LOOOOOONG Time
I do DS on my phone now, and it always seems like too much work to type a journal entry on a smart phone, so it's been a long time since I stopped to update my soap opera life.
First off, excuse the billion typos there is bound to be, this is my first time typing in gel nails and my fingers keep slipping offf the keys!
I don't even know where to begin.....
My mother is even deeper into her Jehovah crack pot religion. Basically her existence is meant to kiss some invisible God's feet. She isn't allowed to celebrate anything. Not even her own birthday. She isn't allowed to attend weddings outside of her church. She isn't allowed to go to bars(which is funny since she has a second job running a kareoke in a bar every other Saturday but she has to hide it from her brain washing ladies since they won't approve and she needs the money to live). She wasn't supossed to accept my mothers day gift to her but I told her that her church could bite me(bad choice but I was mad) and if it was such a big deal it could just be a just because gift.
Also mums arthritis is so bad she has to stop cooking. So she is going to start upgrading this fall, with my help on homework and she wants to become an addictions counseller.
April is back into crack. She's using, shes traffiking, and she's back to prostituting herself for money or drugs. She's stolen hundreds off my mum so far and about a hundred from me before I noticed and banned her from my home. She steals EVERYWHERE she goes. Literally. If she goes into a convenience store she will steal gum, a chocolate bar and a pop. She went into a Safeway the other day and stole almost 100 worth of groceries!!! I refuse to go anywhere with her, because I'm not going to lie for her....if I see it I'll tell. She's about to be homeless again since she's so sure that we all believe that the government is constantly screwing up on her money and shor ting her hundreds. And no one will lend to her anymore and she's angry about it.
Cassandra is staying with her mom, and she has to sneak and hide food in the house or April and her BF get high and eat it all. They sneak into her room at night and steal her smokes because they cant steal cigarettes. Also KC is going up on assault charges from almost two years ago, and since its her second assault charge she could be facing juvie at 15. At least it will garuntee she graduates, quits smoking and doesn't have her mother around.
Not that that matters either. There are MASSIVE drug busts going on in our area and I'm sure Apil is being watched. If she gets busted traffiking agian it's a minimum 7 years in federal prison. She's already a convict!
Kelsey, who is 17, has moved up from just weed to cocaine. I rarely see her. She hates seeing me since I don't let go that she dropped out of school or that shes using and abusing.
My brother and sister in law had a hard financial blow and had to move their family of four into a teeny little two bedroom apartmet. It's been tough for them.
My little sister is unemployed and having no luck finding a new job. She is dating yet another flavour of the year. I love her but her priorities are shit.
Joey and I are in an okay patch. We have hit alot of rough ones lately. Our major issue being weight. He's lost ALOT of weight and weights 158lbs now. A year and a half ago he weighed almost 200. He does nothing different, eats junk, goes to the gym as often as I do and still he loses. I'm not losing any and I broke the 200lb mark. I've changed what I eat, I work out more, and I try sooo hard...but the weight WILL NOT move. And he's not happy with it and it hurts that I loved him when he was big but he seems to love me less the bigger I get. He claims I'm not trying hard enough or I would be losing weight. It's a fight we have often because he says he's concerned about my health, but to me it apppears shallow and it makes me feel horrible.
Marlow is driving me freaking nuts. 2 years old. Nuff said.
That's all for now, my fingers are cramping! Been so long since I typed!
First off, excuse the billion typos there is bound to be, this is my first time typing in gel nails and my fingers keep slipping offf the keys!
I don't even know where to begin.....
My mother is even deeper into her Jehovah crack pot religion. Basically her existence is meant to kiss some invisible God's feet. She isn't allowed to celebrate anything. Not even her own birthday. She isn't allowed to attend weddings outside of her church. She isn't allowed to go to bars(which is funny since she has a second job running a kareoke in a bar every other Saturday but she has to hide it from her brain washing ladies since they won't approve and she needs the money to live). She wasn't supossed to accept my mothers day gift to her but I told her that her church could bite me(bad choice but I was mad) and if it was such a big deal it could just be a just because gift.
Also mums arthritis is so bad she has to stop cooking. So she is going to start upgrading this fall, with my help on homework and she wants to become an addictions counseller.
April is back into crack. She's using, shes traffiking, and she's back to prostituting herself for money or drugs. She's stolen hundreds off my mum so far and about a hundred from me before I noticed and banned her from my home. She steals EVERYWHERE she goes. Literally. If she goes into a convenience store she will steal gum, a chocolate bar and a pop. She went into a Safeway the other day and stole almost 100 worth of groceries!!! I refuse to go anywhere with her, because I'm not going to lie for her....if I see it I'll tell. She's about to be homeless again since she's so sure that we all believe that the government is constantly screwing up on her money and shor ting her hundreds. And no one will lend to her anymore and she's angry about it.
Cassandra is staying with her mom, and she has to sneak and hide food in the house or April and her BF get high and eat it all. They sneak into her room at night and steal her smokes because they cant steal cigarettes. Also KC is going up on assault charges from almost two years ago, and since its her second assault charge she could be facing juvie at 15. At least it will garuntee she graduates, quits smoking and doesn't have her mother around.
Not that that matters either. There are MASSIVE drug busts going on in our area and I'm sure Apil is being watched. If she gets busted traffiking agian it's a minimum 7 years in federal prison. She's already a convict!
Kelsey, who is 17, has moved up from just weed to cocaine. I rarely see her. She hates seeing me since I don't let go that she dropped out of school or that shes using and abusing.
My brother and sister in law had a hard financial blow and had to move their family of four into a teeny little two bedroom apartmet. It's been tough for them.
My little sister is unemployed and having no luck finding a new job. She is dating yet another flavour of the year. I love her but her priorities are shit.
Joey and I are in an okay patch. We have hit alot of rough ones lately. Our major issue being weight. He's lost ALOT of weight and weights 158lbs now. A year and a half ago he weighed almost 200. He does nothing different, eats junk, goes to the gym as often as I do and still he loses. I'm not losing any and I broke the 200lb mark. I've changed what I eat, I work out more, and I try sooo hard...but the weight WILL NOT move. And he's not happy with it and it hurts that I loved him when he was big but he seems to love me less the bigger I get. He claims I'm not trying hard enough or I would be losing weight. It's a fight we have often because he says he's concerned about my health, but to me it apppears shallow and it makes me feel horrible.
Marlow is driving me freaking nuts. 2 years old. Nuff said.
That's all for now, my fingers are cramping! Been so long since I typed!
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Hi there, I just read this, I haven\'t been here for the last few weeks. My heart goes out to you, as always.
I think 7 years in federal prison would be good for April and everyone around her. At least it would contain her, and give her a chance to stop and think.
Your mother is nuts. Sorry, I know I should be more polite, but it always gets me when someone wants to be an addictions counselor or whatever, when they clearly have their own stuff still to sort out. The crazy religion, I mean. Crazy. Y\'know, Michael Jackson\'s family were JWs. That says a lot.
I\'m glad that things are a bit easier with Joey at the moment. I still see his attitude towards you as disrespectful though. Your weight management activities are none of his business. Period.
Regarding weight loss, are you recording your food intake accurately, and have you had a basic medical check-up lately, to see if you have a medical condition that\'s causing trouble for you. Thyroid, diabetes, reproductive system, could all make weight loss more difficult. It\'s hard to get enough exercise with a toddler around. Would she sit in the buggy while you go on power walks?