been a long time

It has been a long time and there has been a lot on my mind. there has been a lot of things going on around me and I don't know where to start or what I need to do about it all. I graduated college with medical billing and coding and then I am going to start going back to school again to finish getting my degree in business administration. I am just so stressed out with everything that has been going on with everything in my life at the time.
I have been seeing a doctor for my depression and anxiety and that has been ok for the most part just still have my bad days some times. I am still having a hard time with the two miscarriages that I have had. but every day it is getting a little better.
I am seeing a new doctor, neurologist, about what has been going on. he put me some new medicines. One of them is a muscle relaxer and I just got to say that I slept so good last night after taking that. It was the best sleep I have had in a long time and today I felt so much better after I got up. He put me on some other meds for arthritis and seizures. I just hope that he knows what he is doing with me on this new meds.
I just want some answers and when I go to the new obgyn that I have to go to next week i am hoping that he will give me some answers on some other things. i am also going to see about getting my tubes tied since we dont want to try for anymore kids and after what we have been through we don't want to try again. i just dont want to risk my life or health to have another kid. I have two boys and they are my world and i would do anything for them. so i am going to talk to my doctor next week and see what he says about it all.
Carter has to have eye surgery next week and i am not looking forward to it one bit. it scares me to death and i dont know what to do about it but i know that he has to have the surgery on both his eyes.
Like i said there are alot of things on my mind and i am trying to figure it all out the best that i can but its hard.