bed time thinking
i was trying to go to sleep and i just found myself sinking and sinking - weakening -
until I had no more strength and no more will - everything had to make sense
and it occurred to me that it seems like I have been trying to conquer my nature
and maybe it's time I work with it instead - I don't know if this is the answer
but I do know that it is important that although I may be flawed and have limited
resources and limited avenues for creating resources
- that I let myself imagine what I would like - blue sky that is -
and so I'm resolved that it's ok to give myself some things and maybe I've got some life left in me
to maybe figure out how I can get more out of life.
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working with my own nature/nurture, without the continual comparison to others, is always a solid plan in my own heavily psychotheraputed ideals. as much as i'd like to be madame currie when i wake up tomorrow, little ol' me is all i get to be. it's enough when i let it be.
Thanks Arfie! Sending big hugs!