Beach Day

Today Geo, his family and I went to the beach. It was fun, even though I got sunburned. We might go again next week. If they go on Friday, though, I'm going to have to go to work instead. I don't want to, but I need to prove that  I can be reliable. I skipped yesterday because that's when we were originally supposed to go, but the car broke down and we couldn't. So they postponed it to today. I didn't have to worry about work since the clinic is closed on weekends. They picked us up early (9am) but that didn't matter since I had been up since 6am. Yesterday I essentially went to bed at 3pm. I took a nap from 3-6pm, woke up and ordered Chinese for dinner, ate and was back in bed by 7:15. Then I slept until 6am again. I'm so tired now, even though I took a nap. 
My sister sent me a text yesterday, and it really upset me. She doesn't want to have any contact with me for a while since I'm on good terms with my stepdad. She claims he assaulted her, but there was no proof. Social Services investigated it and my stepdad came  out clear. But my sister still feels like a victim. I hope she can get over it soon. I love her, and I want to be able to know what's going on in her life. I don't know if she unfriended me on Facebook or whatever. Any way, it hurts and that's that. I wish there was something I could do to help her heal... I healed from much worse. I just feel like she's trying to manipulate me into choosing her side (since in her mind it's about sides) over my stepdad, but I'm not willing to do that. She said he was manipulating us, when she is the one doing the manipulating. It just sucks. 
Mood today- I was hypomanic in the morning, but calmed down and now I'm a bit depressed. I'm just waiting for Geo to get up so I can go to sleep. Food today was good.. I was in my calorie range. I slept pretty good last night, as you can tell by my waking up at 6am and not going back to sleep. 

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JoyceMarilyn
JoyceMarilyn

I am sorry about your lost connection with your sister. Too bad you could not find someway to make both relationships work.
Enjoy the beach!
ann54
ann54

first, i am so sorry about not responding to your journals. ds was not letting me respond to anyones, sometimes i cant stand ds. how fun it souds to go to the beach, i hope your sunburn isnt bad. did you go swimming? i am sorry about your sister, family issues are so tough. i had a very similar problem with my sister. we didnt speak for almost 3 yrs, now, well for a coulpe decades, are great togther. message me if you want to know more. i hope that you 2 can find a way to get back to each other, even if your stepdad is viewed differently. it is so hard, i wish you the very best, just give it time. great attitude about work!!! my goodness you got a lot of sleep, it is no wonder you got up at 6, but it does make a long day. hugss