basking in the afterglow

last night i was depressed.  i have bn 4 a few weeks.  i pushed through it some.  i finished 2 assignments for school.  now im concentrating on finishing the rest of the assignments that r very late.  praying that my teachr will evaluate them on their merit & have mercy on how late they r.  i did my devotions and i read praying for God's will in my life.  i bought some  condoms.  a variety pack with dif types of ribbing.  and some massage gel b/c h was supposed 2 massage me.  neway we ended up having sex.  it was good & satisfying but what i was happiest about is that it was easy.  not hard.  sometimes it seems so complicated.  whose gonna lead.  whose gonna initiate? do u really wanna do this etc. none of that.  it was passionate and good & im glad. 2day i got up & got the kids dressed.  & im gonna finish some more assignments.  i pray i can just pass.  amen