Ballet tomorrow

Another day at mom's. Tomorrow we are going to the Colorado Ballet , the Nutcracker, she is giving me some hassle about having to go. But, it is like a tradition for the two of us to go. I just think that it would be nice for the two of us to spend time with each other. you never know what can happen in a year. Last year after the holidays I thought that I would have already killed myself by this time. I honestly did. So now I get to look at each day as if it were my last. I don't know what I am going to to myself if things get real bad. But, with this detox I think that things will get better. I keep looking toward the light of going to school to learn more about psychology. If I have been able to manipulate all of my doctors up to now I think I would make a good psychologist. I don't wish to be a psychiatrist, I have no need or desire to prescribe drugs... that just seems like more responsibility over a person's life and actions than I need right now.  
 
I am going to keep up the detox and see what happens. But, with the withdrawals I am dizzy and nauseous so I have to go for the evening. 
 
Goodnight moon.