Backache Day

Today my back hurts so bad! I had to take Vicodin twice today. I have some left over from when I herniated my disc last year. It feel like someone hit me in the middle of the back with a baseball bat. I don't know what caused it... I woke up fine, and then as I was walking down the hallway to get breakfast it started hurting like crazy. I've been lying on a heating pad almost all day, except for when I went to go drop off rent and ran to the store really quick. I got lucky that my boss and neighbor, Daisy, took me to the store so I could get some stuff to hold us over until Geo's stepmother takes us to the big store on Monday. I just hope I can lift everything needed on Monday. I hope by tomorrow my back will be back to normal and I can walk and do everything without pain.
It was nice going to the store with Daisy. She's so kind! I'm lucky to have such a nice boss and neighbor. I wasn't sure if I could make it to the store with my back in it's condition on the bus, and she had to go to the store anyway. She didn't get anything, just looked at the sales so she could go back with her daughter tonight and get what they both wanted. I felt kinda bad that she didn't get anything, just went to take me there. I would have preferred if she had gotten some stuff so she wasn't there for nothing. Well, I'm not nothing, but still, you know what I mean. I had just taken another Vicodin when I left, so by the time I left the store to put the stuff in the car I was feeling better. The Vicodin helps some, but not totally. Not even the heating pad and Vicodin combined take away all the pain, but I guess I have to live with it for now.
Mood today was good despite the pain. I feel good and don't want to go to the hospital. Well, maybe the regular hospital for my back, but not the mental hospital. I was hoping to get some help with my medical bills this month somehow, and going to the hospital would do that, so that's one of the reasons I wanted to go plus getting a break from these mood swings. I do need a medication tweak, and I was doing some research. I have been on a higher dose of Depakote without problems before, so I was hoping that I could go back on that dose. I have an appointment with the bad doctor on Monday, so we will see if I go or not. I might have to go to the store instead. I don't even know what time my appointment is at on Monday. I have to look it up when I get to work. I know it's in the afternoon sometime, since I don't get morning appointments.
I don't want to have to see the bad doctor again, but they won't let me see the good doctor without insurance. Oh well. At least with the bad doctor I can just tell him what I want to do and he does it, but I would prefer someone who I could have an educated conversation about my treatment with. That would be Dr. Miller. He's the good doctor, the guy Geo sees. Geo has insurance, so he can see Dr. Miller whenever he wants. I wish I had insurance, but I have to wait at least another year before I can get health insurance from Social Security (Medicare). You have to be on disability for 2 years before you can get it. I guess I will just have to wait. I guess I would rather see the bad doctor than go into the hospital.
Food today was okay.. I'm low on calories, but I got a bunch of sweets at the store so I can rack up the calories. I'm thinking of having some chocolate ice cream with some peanut butter in it. It's something I like, and can eat on almost any day. I'm actually still a bit hungry left over from dinner, so maybe I will have baby carrots and ranch dressing as well. I have a whole bunch of food now that I can eat, so I'm happy. I had some pasta at the store, and it must have set off my stomach, since when I got home I was in so much pain in my stomach, but it went away quickly. I hope it wasn't bad, since a bunch of people were trying it (they were handing out samples). I also got some ginger ale at the store so if the stomach pain continues I can just drink some of that. I love ginger ale. Just more sweets for me to help meet my calories for the day. Stress today was okay.. I got stressed for a minute when I found out Daisy wasn't going to go shopping with me, but I got over it quickly. Sleep last night was good... I slept really well and it wasn't until after I woke up that I had my back problems. I took a nap today and slept okay, so I think I'll be okay tonight. Mood has been good, so I hope it keeps up tomorrow!