Back in recovery
So back in May I had one glass of wine and then struggled with cravings. By July I was having another glass or two and starting to enjoy the feeling again. This theme has continued until over the past couple of months I have been having two glasses every Saturday and sometimes even the next night also!
Yes, life has been more stressfull lately; Yes I left my partner of 15 years two months ago (funnily enough partly because he is an alcoholic) and yes I am now living alone in the middle of the countryside for the first time ever. But none of this is an excuse for letting myself slide back into using alcohol for stress, anxiety or pleasure. I drank 3 nights in a row last weekend and by night 3 I lost control and had more than half a bottle! I am devastated for letting it seduce me again. I actually went into a liquor store - something I had proudly claimed last year that I would never do again!
So here I am at day 3 - sad, angry, disorientated and frustrated with myself. BUT full of courage and resolve because I am going to beat this addiction!!
Daily Strength is a Godsend that will help me get back on track like it did before.
Yes, life has been more stressfull lately; Yes I left my partner of 15 years two months ago (funnily enough partly because he is an alcoholic) and yes I am now living alone in the middle of the countryside for the first time ever. But none of this is an excuse for letting myself slide back into using alcohol for stress, anxiety or pleasure. I drank 3 nights in a row last weekend and by night 3 I lost control and had more than half a bottle! I am devastated for letting it seduce me again. I actually went into a liquor store - something I had proudly claimed last year that I would never do again!
So here I am at day 3 - sad, angry, disorientated and frustrated with myself. BUT full of courage and resolve because I am going to beat this addiction!!
Daily Strength is a Godsend that will help me get back on track like it did before.
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