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I got home last night nice and safe. I spent a lot of time sleeping today, making up for the sleep I didn't get at my mom's. I got like 15 hours of sleep, and boy did it feel good. I was supposed to go to work today, but I was way too tired to go. It's okay, I can just go in on Tuesday when the clinic reopens. Geo has a doctor's appointment on the 4th, so I can't work that day, but I'm planning on working all the rest of the days up to my trip to LA. The trip coming up hasn't hit me yet, and I leave in 13 days. I can't believe I'm going to be going to LA. It seems so foreign to me. When it's time for me to go back home, I think it's going to hit me then. I don't realize things until after they are over. I go, but it doesn't seem real to me. Then I spend a bunch of time there confused a bit, and then when I'm on the plane back home it suddenly seems real to me. I'm going to keep posting my journals and such while gone, and I'm going to be keeping up with my Weight Loss Buddies and all that good stuff. I'm going to be a bit stricter on my diet since I'm going to be there so long. It's one thing to be gone for a week over the holidays, but it's another to be gone for 3 weeks after the holidays. I gained about 4 pounds while at my moms, but I know most of that is water weight and will be gone soon.
I stepped on the scale this morning, and even though I was up on my weight it didn't get me down. I feel okay about my weight gain. I know some of it's fat, but I did make a bunch of good healthy decisions when I was at my mom's. Like not eating fast food for breakfast when everyone else was. I had a bowl of cereal instead. There were leftovers from the breakfast, and I was good with that too. Normally I would eat the leftovers since I hate food going to waste, but I didn't this time. I'm pretty proud of that decision. I did a lot of mindless eating while I was there, and that's part of the reason why I gained the weight I did. I don't mindlessly eat at home, since there isn't a lot of food here to mindlessly snack on. We need to go to the store again. Geo went while I was gone and got some stuff, but the bread is gone, and he needs more soda.
I wonder if he's going to do what it takes to get the surgery. I know he wants to lose the weight, and him going to his doctor on the 4th will hopefully make it sink in that he could lose a lot more weight by cutting out the soda and sugary foods. It's just hard for people to change, but they can change with the right motivation. I'm trying to motivate him, but it's his choice. He's been good with cutting out some of the soda, so I'm proud of him for that. There is only so much I can do for him, though. I wish he would not eat so much sugar, but it's his choice. I think seeing the numbers on the scale go down will help motivate him to get the gastric bypass surgery. He needs it to save his life. I will be standing by his side all the while. Some people wonder why I enable him, but he's an adult and can make his own decisions. If I don't get sugary stuff at the store, he will go to the store on his own and get them, and much more bad stuff, and then I eat it too.
Mood today was good... I was tired for part of the day, but then I had my coffee and I felt better. I didn't go for my walk today, but I'm going to do my strength training tonight and go for a walk tomorrow. I just didn't want to get caught walking around work when everyone was leaving. I want them to think I just got home today. I was supposed to come home on Wednesday, but the ticket prices were so high that it was cheaper for me to come home yesterday. If I had come home on Wednesday, I could have made it to work today, but I didn't. Oh well, there's only so much I can do about that. At least things with my mom and Tracy have calmed down, and I don't have to worry about her getting kicked out of the house anymore.
Food today was good... I'm in my calorie range where I want to be. I had a chicken thigh for breakfast, ramen with veggies for lunch, and chicken, potatoes and corn for dinner. I also had a small bite of some peppermint bark that my friend Andrea gave me for Christmas. I got a ton of peppermint bark now, enough to last me at least a month or two. I don't eat it fast, I like to savor it. I'm going to put some in the freezer to last longer. Stress was low today, it was nice to be back in the drama llama free environment that is my apartment. Sleep was good and long, so I feel better. Have a good New Years Eve, all of you!

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JoyceMarilyn
JoyceMarilyn

Glad you had a safe trip home! Happy New Year!
ann54
ann54

happy yur home safe and sound. you have a great attitude about the weight gain, you will get back on track now that your home, it is so hard when away from your enviroment. i didnt know youd be gone 3 weeks, thats long. what do you have planned to keep eating within your range and the foods? hugsss