Back from vacation

Well, I just got back from Miami.  It was absolutely beautiful.  I focused on being happy and that was the outcome.  I was more loving towards my husband and children with no strings attached.  I felt as if I was in a dream.  
I did feel a little at ease when my husbands brother and sister called to check up on him.  For a while I felt alone no-one asking for me.  I'm not talking to his brother and sister because of what my father did.  Which is fine as we all know we can't change the past but we look forward to great future.  I feel like that my husbands side are all laughing at me because I'm not talking to my family.  They started rumors about my dad committing adultery.  When my dad called them on that they were angry with me.  Well at the time I thought I was doing the right thing and protecting my father's name.  Only to find out months later my father back stabbed me and lied and said it was me starting these rumors.  
Anyways, life goes on I have forgiven him and the rest of them they obviously have nothing else to do but cause problems for others in order to forget about their own.  
My half-brothers and sisters haven't called for New Years like they usually do.  Which made me a little sad.  Then I had to convince myself and remember that I'm the one that made this choice and need to live by this and accept it and stop feeling sorry for myself.  If my father wanted me around he would have called me. Right?  I did well, move on, forgive, forget and love.  We are a magnet the more I love the more love with come to me.  That is my new year resolution this year is to love more and trust more.
 
 

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ehope
ehope

You\'re a lovely person, so I\'m sure there\'s a list of friends, co-workers, etc that love spending time with you. Focus on reaching out to them instead. You can choose your friends but you can\'t choose your family. I\'m learning (slowly) to try to reach out more to other people. I have such a trust problem, especially with women. My resolution is to reach out more and give people a chance. Plus I love spending time with my daughters, and I don\'t see that changing. I\'m going to focus on the people who appreciate me!

/hugs
P00hbear
P00hbear

Well said by ehope - it\'s hard to do, but time to focus on you and other areas of your life you can enhance....glad you had a wonderful vacation!