Back from appointment

      I feel the need to cry but I can't yet because the kids are up and I don't want to upset them.  I went to the doctors today, I had never been to this one before so I was more nervous then usual.  The doctor was through if a bit brusque he focused mainly on my asthma, I have been having trouble breathing lately, and it scares me.  I hope it is just my asthma and not something worse.  He gave me some singular and some Symbicort.  I pray that it works Please Lord.         I also told him about the tiredness, and the lack of energy I have been feeling.  I forgot to mention that I also have muscle weakness, so now I am kicking myself.  I hope that wasn't an awful mistake.  He ordered a CBC with manual diff., comprehensive panel, UA, and checking for vitamin D defieceny(sp).  He also wanted to do a physical in two weeks.  I pray that by then I will get some answers.        I am also having a lot of anxiety, full blown  anxiety a place I never wanted to be again.  Where is all of my faith now?  Why can't I trust in God like I should?  What is wrong with me?  I fully believe when I pray for other people that God is listening, but for some reason I fear He does not hear me when I pray for myself.  I know He does I need to keep the Faith, He is there and He will help me.  Thank you Jesus.