Back Again

I'm back again. My last journal was in Feburary and I had just had a partial mammogram, which thankfully came out clear.  My boobs still itch and are painful off and on.  Like yesterday my righ n was very itchy, but a couple of days before that my left breast was painful.  I tried keeping track along with my cycle to see if it was hormonal but I didn't really notice a firm pattern or anything maybe if I did it longer?  So I have been trying to trust in my doctor's and not worry but then about a month and a half ago I noticed a light brownish reddish spot in my bra on the right side.  Which freaked me out of course.  I was wearing a very old discolored bra but I think it was discharge.  I wasn't 100% so I have been checking my bra everyday and nothing.  So I was torn was it something to worry about or not?  Finally I was tired of worrying about it so I decided to make another telephone appointment because to get an actual in person appointment would take too long they are scheduling them for Aug, (plus the kids are out of school and so I would have to get a babysitter for them and that would be difficult).  Nevermind seeing my doctor that I am actually assigned to she is booked out until end of aug/sept.  So my telephone appt is for tomorrow with a doctor I have never seen or talked to, which is disheartening.  She will have access to my record though so hopefully she can review and we can talk about weither or not this is something worry about.  My thinking is that if it was c then it would happen more frequently not just the one time, but I am not a medical professional so I want to run it by one and get their opinon.  

I will edit this post tomorrow after I talk to them and let you know how it went.  

Update:  

So I had my telephone appt a few days ago.  It went alright.  We talked and she seemed nice enough.  She wasn't worried about the discharge unless it happen more then once or if their is physcial change to the n itself.  Other then that she didn't have any help for me.  So that's good that she doesn't think it is anything to worry about.  I just wish I could wholeheartedly stop worrying.  But when the pain is noticable or the itching is bad it is hard not to worry that they missed something.  I also have more tired lately and have very little energy or everything seems to take more energy then it should, my chest feels heavy and my knees shakey.  So I worry that I have something serious.  Of course I know that it could be because of my anxiety or that I am staying up to late and not sleeping well once I am asleep.  But I worry it is something more serious and that it will only be found when it is too late.  IDK 

I am praying that the doctor's are right and it is not cancer and that whatever is going on in my body will heal and not get worse.  I am trying to stay positive and not let anxiety ruin the present.