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smokeygirl
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Back again...

I have gone over this road so many times it makes me sick - I'm not happy with myself right now - I guess I just have not "got it".  I thought I had it all figured out for a while, but I'm back to square one - not really, since all of the efforts in the past were not wasted but I am not considering this a life-long challenge... it's so depressing to me when I go off track.  I admire those that can just say I Quit and that's it and never look back.  Hopefully that is me very soon.. I have all the tools and know the answers, but not using them!!!!!
Hope all is well with everyone - it has been a while and I"m glad to be back on-line.
Smokeygirl
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deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m sorry you are struggling. Yeah, I know. I didn\'t get it for years and years. I tried to quit before and I did once in the past for six months when I went to GA but I was bored and went back. My dtr came by tonite to tell me she is sick and off of work til she gets well, she is a Dental Asst., and that her washing machine broke down and she has no money to repair it and so on. So when she got up to leave, I said, well you can wish me Happy B\'day and she said oh yeah, that\'s right. I wonder if she ever thinks if she had not gambled this month, maybe she could repair her washing machine? I don\'t enable her anymore. I used to help her but no more. She is 46 and not a child so she can work it out. I really hated the thought of losing money and ending up in the street. I was only one check away each month and that\'s too scarey for me. I wish you the best. hugs barb
SheliaMac
SheliaMac

Ditto, girlfriend, Ditto. Your not alone in your boat, I\'m riding right there along with you. But we can do this. I know that, I\'ve seen it done before. I\'ll be your your first mate if you\'d like, we help each other navigate towards calmer waters!!!
smokeygirl
smokeygirl

Thanks Barb and Sheila! It\'s good to be back and communicate again with good online friends.. Happy B-Day, Barb - mine is coming up soon as well.
Take care,
Smokeygirl