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i nd somthing 2 birth. a biz. acareer. something. i kp fling this urg 2 have a baby. i am very involved during preg. i plan imake lists. i am so concerned w/the health of the child,,,that i am concerned w/my own health and the nesting thing kicks in....and i have anexcuse 2 b emotional....lord plz help me to channel that energy and love and concern, b/c i do not want another child. amen
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I sort of had that feeling about 16 years ago when my DD turned 2. I hated to see the cute little cuddable baby actually grow up. I missed smelling the pink heads of a baby, and I just missed that busyness that a mother does when they have a real little one. But I had to fight that urge because I knew if I had another one, I would not be able to do the things I wanted to do later on. I get really mellow at seening my own DD so grown up and semi independant but I think it comes with the mother terrority. Fight that urge --your past journals speak of how much you adore your children but are in conflict with with how much you want something for your own. Go to the movies if you feel in the \'mood\' and the strains of \'1000 Violins!\' (if ya know what I mean! *elbow elbow*
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