awful
i feel like shit, total fucking shit.
started getting pain last night before bed. took a bath, lit some candles, tried to relax to make the pain go away. it didn't and i ended up having to take one of my oxys. i was still uncomfortable throughout the night, and slept like shit.
now today my ovaries are super sore, i have a migraine again, and I'm just stupid tired for some reason. i have no motivation for anything but to sleep. but of course on the one day that i feel like upper shit, i need to study for a test, and go to a night class tonight. fml.
i hate this shit. i hate having my baby knowing i don't feel good. i try to sometimes hide it but it shows all over my face. I'm supposed to hang out with someone thats in my class today to study for the test, and i don't even want to do that. &i'm not about to explain to someone i barley fucking know, why i'm "sick". no thanks.
i made an appointment yesterday with a psychologist. either my bipolar"ness" is coming back in full force, or i'm a bit depressed. kind of realized this over the weekend when i really didn't want anything to do with any friends we were hanging out with. school, and dealing with this endometriosis is just overwhelming and i guess depressing. i try to keep my head up i really do. but i'm kind of at a loss of what to do to continue to keep my head up.
i have an appointment this week to hopefully get a prescription for pain killers. i'm going to bawl my fucking eyes out if i get told *again* no. i can't deal with this intense pain with alieve/motrin/whatever. i just can't. they do NOTHING for me.
i just want to crawl back in bed, or curl up on the couch, and make the pain go away. what if my endo is getting worse and i just don't know it? in return i just get to wait till august 22 to see a fucking RE. i'm so sick of this shit.
started getting pain last night before bed. took a bath, lit some candles, tried to relax to make the pain go away. it didn't and i ended up having to take one of my oxys. i was still uncomfortable throughout the night, and slept like shit.
now today my ovaries are super sore, i have a migraine again, and I'm just stupid tired for some reason. i have no motivation for anything but to sleep. but of course on the one day that i feel like upper shit, i need to study for a test, and go to a night class tonight. fml.
i hate this shit. i hate having my baby knowing i don't feel good. i try to sometimes hide it but it shows all over my face. I'm supposed to hang out with someone thats in my class today to study for the test, and i don't even want to do that. &i'm not about to explain to someone i barley fucking know, why i'm "sick". no thanks.
i made an appointment yesterday with a psychologist. either my bipolar"ness" is coming back in full force, or i'm a bit depressed. kind of realized this over the weekend when i really didn't want anything to do with any friends we were hanging out with. school, and dealing with this endometriosis is just overwhelming and i guess depressing. i try to keep my head up i really do. but i'm kind of at a loss of what to do to continue to keep my head up.
i have an appointment this week to hopefully get a prescription for pain killers. i'm going to bawl my fucking eyes out if i get told *again* no. i can't deal with this intense pain with alieve/motrin/whatever. i just can't. they do NOTHING for me.
i just want to crawl back in bed, or curl up on the couch, and make the pain go away. what if my endo is getting worse and i just don't know it? in return i just get to wait till august 22 to see a fucking RE. i'm so sick of this shit.
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