August 14th 2013

Today I had time to sit down and read some of my books.  I also started a new workout routine to stay flexible and healthy.  I feel like my mind body and soul is being cleansed all at the same time.  My dad has been sober for a while which is good, hes got a new sponser and is going to AA regularly.  This all began when I was away and I said to myself this is good, this is how it should be.  I was on vacation and I actually relaxed and am working on letting things go.  I think it is a good step and it seems to be working for me.  I felt relieved to come home and find this out, it was a pleasant surprise and I know that with or without me life goes on for people.  Imagine that, lol. It was a nice step to actually let myself have fun and not worry about it, so I am trying to continue this frame of mind.  I see my therapist tomorrow and then a meeting on Friday, so I am set for the rest of this week.  I am feeling a sense of pleasure with my readings and realizing things happen and it isn't some personal vendetta against me. I am trying to sort through years of emotions and I know its hard but it is worth it to grab on to it, remember that it happened and then release the pain and torment that I have kept so close to my heart for all this time. I am truly letting go...