Aug.1,2011
Why do we never know how were going to feel ,yesterday was good today is bad,just can not figure it out,I am so glad to have found this sight and so many friends, it is getting me through. I hope i can help people to ,every one is so kind. I am here if any one needs some one,its so hot out and I feel stuck in side. well be fore we know it fall will be here, I love spring and fall. The sun does shine and the rain does make the flowers grow, maybe there is a reason for every thing.
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Glad to see a smiley face after your comment. It IS so hard dealing w/this. The uncertainty is causing me to be more anxious. I do volunteer work 2 days/wk. and that helps, except for the times I a not able to go and it makes me feel I\'ve let them down.
Let\'s keep in touch...esp about your goal. Don\'t know what my goal is right now.
I understand what you are describing and I believe it\'s all a part of this path. Feeling it all and having it change within a heartbeat. I\'m glad that you found FMO yet sorry that any of us have to be here. The companionship is what has kept me moving along. Gentle care to you this day. Hugs, Joanie
They say life is for the living in our case ,life is trying to keep living,for this is the hardest road we will ever take,lets take it to gather and be here for one another because believe me no one understands what it take for us to even get up every day, I will be here for each and every one and with each other we will get through, love to every one and hugs to hang on to. from Squarley
Well today I am sad ,when I start thinking about the holiday\'s coming up I fall apart , I like every one want my daughter back , the pain of thinking I will never see her or here her call me mom again is to unbearable, all happiness fades away,I try so hard to be positive but it gets me down.I miss her so much ,she told me one time How beautiful I was on the inside and outside , I miss her telling me that. I thought I keep her up but it was her keeping me up. Why must our children die before us I can not and will not ever understand this. Peace to every one.
Dear friend you are saying the same words I\'ve thought every day since my son Jason passed on. We all understand. There is no right and or wrong in grieving you have to feel and do what helps you. I cry a lot. Every day, for a full 5 months now -- actually a little more. The tears are not stopping and as long as I need to cry I will cry. I too miss my son and his kind words. I even miss his temper -- because that was a part of him. I miss everything about him just as you miss everything about your daughter. My son\'s name was Jason -- is Jason. My name is Terry. Sending you love and prayers for peace. Terry
O how our hearts our broken and our life has changed forever, I want my daughter back and and it took 5 years to stop crying ,it made me so sick I did nothing but sit in a chair, I can not live with the thought of never seeing or talking to her again ,I can not look at her picture ,its like some one ripping my heart out and no one understands ,but us who have experienced it. It is a lonely road some times,may we all some how find some peace and I will pray that prayer every night for us all. Shirley