At a Crossroads

So here I am at a crossroads again.  Left alone at 11:30 at night being left alone with my thoughts.  Never should I be left alone with my thoughts.   There are decision to be made.  The right decisions need to be made, not the kind that fly out of your emotions.  Believe me, I am an emotional mess and have trouble getting a grip on them running a muck and messing up my life. Once again, I am sick.  The infection in my lungs is back and it brought along depression to go with it. It's difficult not to go in that place  when my sickness comes back.  Will I ever be well?  Sitting in one place all day is not fun.   Need prayer, need encouragement, need to try and get out of this rut.  My eyes are getting heavy, so I'll need to sleep soon.  No need to make decisions at this moment.  Will think tomorrow when my mind is fresh and new.