Appt Today with RE

I met with my RE today for a follow-up and to discuss the failed FET and next steps. Once again, I feel caught off guard with my emotions, because when she blamed the failed FET on my age, and said at my age egg and embryo quality just aren't all that, it hit me like a ton of bricks. Of course this is not breaking news, its really more of a big duh obvious and I've heard it many times before, but it still stung pretty bad. We talked a little, and she just said to try again this month, which is what we plan to do. I asked if we should implant 2 embies this time (my clinic's policy is to only implant 1 at a time) and she said it's something to think about, but she's not so sure she would recommend it in case of multiples and my hormone sensitivity and possible complications due to age. But, when I told her that our insurance only coves 3 transfers and I need to make these count, she was more open to the possibility of transferring 2. I'm freaked out about multiples too, but I also think it could increase the chances of at least 1 sticking. I would bet you ladies would agree that I should implant 2? I'm going to discuss it with DH and see what we should do. She also suggested we try baby aspirin this time around. There really was nothing else to say I guess. There was something sorta positive, she told me that she transferred 2 embies into a woman exactly my age last month and now she's pregnant with twins, so not to give up hope. Still, I left there feeling dejected and broken hearted and started to cry waiting for the elevator. I hate that it's come to this and I'm barrelling down on 44 and still TTC.
My appt today took far longer than expected, and I was stressing out the whole time since I was pretty late to work. It just reinforced that I'm doing the right thing by telling my boss that I'm doing IVF. I plan to have the "IVF talk" on Monday so wish me luck!!
Sending love, baby dust, prayers, good vibes, and whatever else I can send to help you all have your baby dreams come true and bring you comfort in the struggle on this IF journey....