Anxiety/Panic attack
So...what a weekend. Went to my oldest daughters house for the weekend, she was havin a small party sat. night. Wanted to kinda watch over things..LOL. Anyhoo, fri.night awhile after getting there, i needed to go to the atm to get $ to pay Amy(my daughters stepsister) for the gas to come n get me. About 10 min. before we were going, i went into an anxiety/panic attack. It was horrible. My whole body was on fire, my ears were ringing and makin like a loud whooshing sound, my heart was racing...it was just plain horrible. I did not want to tell anybody, i was soooo scared inside, i actually just forced myself to go through with it. My youngest daughter went with us, as well another girl, i was soooo glad my d went in the store with me, i had to hold on to the side of the atm cause my legs felt like they were going to buckle under... they dropped me back off at my oldest d's(they were going to someone elses house), as soon as i got back inside all the horrible feelings melted away, but i was left feelin drained, shaken, just not a right sort of feelin and my gut just started churnin, it hurt so bad, i had to lay on the couch for about a 1/2 hour till i was feelin almost back to normal. That was a very scary experience!!!!! I haven't had an attack like that in over 20 yrs, happened in the unemployment office(ugg). I started worrying about when it would happen again and where. I confided in my d, she was very understanding(both my daughters have anxiety issues). She was just mad that i didnt tell my youngest d while it was happenin. She might have been able to help in some way and perhaps have shortened the attack. She's probrably right. I'm supposed to be going to a school alumni event in about 2 weeks with my mother. Now i worry about that. My d told my mother yesterday about the incident and my ma talked to me about it and said she would still pick me up and if for any reason i didnt feel i could go, she would drop me off at my d's house and pick me up afterwards(the event is in the same town). Told her that would work for me, that i really do want to go(i do) and hope that everything will just be okay. So i thought she was cool about it. I know she doesnt really know too much about it, but i soooo appreciate her willingness to try to help however she can to make me feel better. Love my mom and d's. Their awesome. All 3 can be bitches sometimes..lol..but i love em to death. danggg..my fingers feel tired..guess i'm off here for now. I feel better!!
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