Anxiety is UP
I'm so glad I have a few minutes to write in my journal. I've been so stressed out today. I did go vote, something positive. My husband has got a new job. He's doing orientation today and tomorrow and some training next week...out of town...I can't go because I have classes and important tests. This is driving me nuts. He is an LPN and its mostly well pretty much all women that he works with. I've had trust issues from before I met him and now things have happened to cause me to still have those same issues. He's never cheated on me, but was tempted once when his best friends wife tried to get with him.. I walked in and he had turned her down and they were sitting there talking of course I didn't believe all that at first..its a long story, and he didn't tell me the whole truth at first, he wanted to try to protect everyone (but me it seems). We've been through counseling and everything, and I decided to stay and try to regain trust because he did lie to me about alot of things.
I know I shouldn't feel this way...but my husband is really naive and didn't understand how women can try to sink their claws into another woman's man. He says he's learned his lesson and he does act different. But all that was a year ago, and it just causes me anxiety. I really don't think he will do anything, but I'm the jealous type to start with...with what has happened to me and in past relationships, this kind of thing puts me on high alert.
I mean, I remember her saying things that I knew was her way of trying to get his attention and flirting and it completely went right over his head. Like one time she made a point to tell him that her chiropractor made her unbotton her jeans and she thought it was weird that maybe he wanted something else from her. My reaction to that was...ok...she wants him to think that other men find her desirable and he should to. He turned her down though and there hasn't been contact since then. I know, I've monitored...I had to for my sanity. but I have a complete and utter disdain for that woman. If I ran into her somewhere I would probably punch her in the face.
SHE WANTED MY HUSBAND TO GET HER PREGNANT BECAUSE SHE WASN'T GETTING PREGNANT WITH HER OWN HUSBAND. SHE SAID WE COULD ALL SHARE THE BABY!!!!! TALK ABOUT PSYCHO!!!!
ANYWAY, plus I don't like hb working the night shift, I get paranoid...but he works better those shifts. We still have alot to work out both together and personally. I'm just so crazy frustrated.
I've been in a really bad mood this week and finding this out is just adding more to it. There are several bills due all at the same time again and his unemployment check is definetly only covering one. It's like we can't win. I've held it together for so long I don't know how long I can hold up under all this stress. I have an appointment nov 15 but I know they will have to process me and stuff first and I won't get an appt with the therapist until later. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!
I know I shouldn't feel this way...but my husband is really naive and didn't understand how women can try to sink their claws into another woman's man. He says he's learned his lesson and he does act different. But all that was a year ago, and it just causes me anxiety. I really don't think he will do anything, but I'm the jealous type to start with...with what has happened to me and in past relationships, this kind of thing puts me on high alert.
I mean, I remember her saying things that I knew was her way of trying to get his attention and flirting and it completely went right over his head. Like one time she made a point to tell him that her chiropractor made her unbotton her jeans and she thought it was weird that maybe he wanted something else from her. My reaction to that was...ok...she wants him to think that other men find her desirable and he should to. He turned her down though and there hasn't been contact since then. I know, I've monitored...I had to for my sanity. but I have a complete and utter disdain for that woman. If I ran into her somewhere I would probably punch her in the face.
SHE WANTED MY HUSBAND TO GET HER PREGNANT BECAUSE SHE WASN'T GETTING PREGNANT WITH HER OWN HUSBAND. SHE SAID WE COULD ALL SHARE THE BABY!!!!! TALK ABOUT PSYCHO!!!!
ANYWAY, plus I don't like hb working the night shift, I get paranoid...but he works better those shifts. We still have alot to work out both together and personally. I'm just so crazy frustrated.
I've been in a really bad mood this week and finding this out is just adding more to it. There are several bills due all at the same time again and his unemployment check is definetly only covering one. It's like we can't win. I've held it together for so long I don't know how long I can hold up under all this stress. I have an appointment nov 15 but I know they will have to process me and stuff first and I won't get an appt with the therapist until later. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!
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Make sure that lady is not around either one of you. I pray things get better for you.