Anxiety
Anxiety is starting to take over and I hate it. I contantly feel my stomach rumbling and I only eat because I have to. I have lost quite a bit of weight and I feel like there are butterflies in my stomach all the time. The loneliness is huge eventhough I am not always alone but those thoughts are just there. Sleeping isn't easy but the melatonin is working some. Not sure whether to sell my house because of so many responsibilities that go with the upkeep of a home or sell it I know the market is bad right now but I dislike being here. Hopefully this will end I do anything to avoid being home. Luis this is so hard I never would of expected you to leave me. The weekends are the worse I hope you are enjoying yourself right now because I would love to be there with you. I have to wait till God says okay your turn but believe me I hate the waiting. People may die but love never does.
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I am so sorry you are feeling the weight of the anxiety but also completely understand. I wake up most morning filled with anxiety before I even get out of bed. You are so right .. the love never ends and what you and Luis had will never end. I pray for peace for you during this time. God Bless
Pam
Thanks so much I know you are aware of all that I am feeling, don\'t worry about your son he\'ll be fine I have 3 sons. I have a daughter in Panama City I am praying for your son. I too have to go to the S.S office and haven\'t begun to do that either. I can\'t stand those places, right now the only thing that keeps me in check is going to work because being home is gruesome for me.
You take care and I also will pray for you as well. Lisa