Another week has ended
I start my two 12 hour shifts tonight and I think where has the time went to???? Seeems like no sooner than I finish up work I am back again. Has time really changed or am I more aware of it? The older I get the more it seems to pass by, seems like it should be the other way around for some reason. The crazy women is still in the hospital. I have tried to talk to the matron in not takng her back because she just upset the whole place there has to be a better place for her to go. Since she owns the private nursing home she can really say we don't want her back. Well not that we would get anybody better coming in her place, you always get rid of one crazy and a another one appears. Sorry I guess I should say with mental heath issues. We are just not the right place for her, we are not helping her....End of story. Hope everyone is doing good and not letting life and sorrow get them down....There is something else. After I mention this you might think I am one of the crazies...LOL But I use to think of this area in my mind that I would go to when things got really bad for me. It can be anything at all. The safe place I called it. It was a osasis, with a whilte sandy beach lots of palm trees, nice blue crystal clear water, with mountains , rainbow and a raft I use to float on. I can picure everything in my head, but the rainbow has gone. I haven't gone to that place for along time, because during the time my daughter died I thought I would never come back. But I thought it was time I revisited my safe place. The rainbow represented happiness for me everytime I looked at it I would feel happiness. I am working on trying to get it back. The only way I know is to make myself happy and maybe it might return. So I think this week I am going to start a list of things that make me happy and start doing them. How does that sound for Ms looney toons here???? Fuuny thing here is I haven't even thought about my safe place until I had a dream that had the rock group osasis in my dream. Khristy was also in the dream, she was driving the car that belong to my parents, There was alot more but I won't bore you with my dreams. I was talking over my dream with my partner Peter and he happen to mention remember your safe place you told me about and that's how I remembered and went back there and the rainbow was gone. Have a Happy Week Everyone
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