Another update

I thank God that I can come on here and be happy or alright. It has been too long, I will try to come on here at least once a month. I do have a diary also.  Well where to begin. From the good and that's what I'm doing good. I feel that the meds, thearpy and prayers and positive thoughts, faith and anything that will help. I'm keeping an upbeat attitude and not as depressive ( even under the worst conditions).  And I have had some. :) It's not much more to say, I'm still not working and sometimes the pain from the way I got fired trys to engulf me and I push that thoughts out of my mind. I have to counter those thoughts with positives such as: home w/ the kids, better parenting, being refreshed for them and much more.....i'm looking for a new apartment and I know that I will get one- Faith!!!! I'm lonely and want someone speacial, therefore I'm not staying locked in the house yet I'm not at every function. One day at a time. All good things in due time. I must add and this is not a positive yet not a negative- I'm still chasing behind BB. He knows about all of my drama and I Know ( not think) that is why I want to be with him. It's going be hard to explain all of this to someone new. One thing at a time. Goodnight DS and pray for me. Boston I hope that you're okay. I wish that I had direct contact with you.